poems
Purple Garlic
sestina in memory of cw
I miss you when I see purple
and white garlic cloves when I take knife
in hand to peel and slice and mince I remember
the hot day you showed me how patient
and amazed that I was a woman over
thirty years old and I had never cooked fresh garlic
I miss you when I hold my one kitchen knife
ready to chop onions shallots leeks what I remember
from our years is in slices trimmed moments and patient
hours around stoves trips to the grocery dishes full to over
flowing with food even alone now I always add garlic
and see you sometimes by sink wearing that purple
faded shirt you loved I miss you best when I remember
our cooking our dinner parties easy talk the patient
measured moments waiting for a pie to set I eat left over
salad spaghetti gnaw on yesterday’s garlic
bread and want to stop at this this the sky grows purple
dark pink pale orange a sharp knife
cuts clean cuts quick best you said my hands practiced and patient
still want to pare away the bad spots you were over
me and moving on suddenly cool and sure raw wild garlic
and dandelions grew up fast in the side yard our purple
bruises from moving the furniture faded you gave me the best knife
I stay busy read cook books try new recipes l remember
Find I miss you when I almost lie out loud and stop over
come with recounting the lies we told back and forth garlic
flavoured spicy and smooth you knew all along and said purple
is a colour of healing as though that would help you put down your knife
put down a handful of carrots glanced at me shrugged I remember
I was in a hurry for some reason for some reason you were patient
for some reason all this comes back me at the first taste of garlic
comes back whole uncut a bulb with little roots purple
around the top I’m less apt to slip these days find knife
suddenly cutting flesh of other hand I’m more apt to remember
the words without mincing them bruised neither doctor nor patient
I miss you when I say something hard something true
To someone else I miss you and this is not over
Non-violence
I’m the girl who believes I believe well
I believe in violence in every cell
every sense of body in bones
and blood and back and brain
I’m the girl who put the paper target
complete with 6 neat .38 caliber holes
through the small red heart
of the line drawn picture of a man
on my door I taped that target on my front door
one year It made me smile when I came home
late nights alone afraid
I know about violence
and I’m the girl who knows the name of every tree
on the mountain
and the place where lightning too out the top
of the old pine the place where the August
wind storm broke apart an oak
I know about violence
I’m the girl who knows the feel
of a nickel blue blade cold
against the skin of rib
the girl who cries when she stands on the beach
and the clouds roll and the sky turns pink
I’m the girl who knows the feel of scars healing
on a 12 year old back
and the feel of hoping only that they heal
before the next set of leather belt strikes
I’m the girl who lived one summer grown-up wild
on berries and roots wild plum and apple
green leaves and fox grapes and asparagus
I’m the crazy girl who can run in the woods
I’m the girl who survives
I’m the girl who knows the colour of purple green bruises
from hand and fist on arm and jaw the feel
of tracing those old lines about love
and learning and for your own good
I’m the girl who can build things out of wood
I’m the girl who has looked into the bloody face
of a boy dying from a shotgun blast hunting accident
and the face of a girl a friend hit killed left
by a man in a white Cadillac
and the young face of a father killed slowly
but just as dead from radioactive particles
I’m the girl who talks to her dog and her furniture
and her food
I’m the girl who owns a gun and knows how to use it
and I’m the girl who ydoesn’t
I’m the girl who knows that catch of breath
when someone might when someone holds one
loaded and aimed close
I’m the girl who tamed wild horses
by talking talking softly talking
moving slowly talking soothing
I’m the girl who practices the Zen tea ceremony
by herself at home before bed
I’m the girl who drank Guinness extra stout
with 20 year old Irish girls girls
who smuggled guns across the border
smuggled bombs across the border
girls who liked bluegrass music and sang
sweet sweet harmonies
I’m the girl who wakes up laughing
I’m the girl who gets the burning tower
I’m the girl who stopped a rape in progress
by wielding a broom and screaming
by hitting the man in the head
with the broom with the wood handle of the broom
and screaming screaming screaming
I’m the girl who was not brave but afraid
I’m the girl who talks nice talks polite
like my mama wanted whenever I see fit
I’m still the girl who survives
and I’m the girl who knows violence
who believes in violence
I’m the girl who’s been left slowly and all of a sudden
left for and art school left for a Perfect Master
left for a man left for a plan for a Good Job
and a house in the suburbs left for a younger woman
left for a line of cocaine
I’m the girl who knows about pain
I’m the girl who stayed through car wrecks
angry threats screaming fits
the girl who’s held on long past common sense
and I’m the girl who still blushes when someone I love
flirts well across the table
I’m the girl who talks out loud
I’m the girl who makes mistakes mistakes
and I’m the girl who makes changes
I’m the girl who believes in violence
I’m the girl who owns a broom and knows
how to use it
I believe in violence I believe well
in every cell every sense of body
and believing is what frees me frees me
from falling into using it
I’m the girl who can choose
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